G,
This month was a time to overcome fears. You have discovered braveness and practice it often. I first realized this one day at the carwash, usually you HATE the carwash, and try to claw your way out of your seat if we even talk about it, even when we pass the carwash down the street from our house you point it out to me and tell me how you the carwash makes you cry. However one day a couple of weeks ago I guess I was feeling brave and thought we could “try nen” (try again) it may have helped that we were on our way to the “nhow tone house” (snow cone house) your new FAVORITE place in the world (and another location you can point out all across town) so you were not only distracted by dreams of a “deen nhow tone” but had something to look forward to as well. As I drove into the carwash tunnel, I looked into the backseat and you had a look of panic on your face, I felt horrible for having brought you there and if I could have put the car in reverse I would have, you must have felt my hesitation because at that moment you looked at me and said “It’s ohtay Mama, I jus shut my eyes” and you placed your trembling hands over your face. I know you were still scared, your hands shook the whole time and when you did open your fingers just enough to peek your eyes were wide, but Grayson, you never once whined or cried and when we got through it you were SO excited for yourself, just as I was. It was your first taste of overcoming fear and now you were ready to take on the world.
What was to come over the next few weeks was amazing to me. You went down the biggest slide at the park ALL BY YOURSELF, hardly waiting for me to get to the bottom to catch you, (before you wouldn’t even go down the smallest slide with all of my begging and promises of green snow cones). Then there was the miniature version of Roaring Springs in CeeCee’s back yard. You stayed with Auntie “Fwofie” one day and when I came to pick you up you were playing in Lucee’s “wimmin pool” which has a slide shaped like a whale! You went up and down that slide at least 50 times in just the short time I was there. I asked you at one point to go on your tummy and at first you refused, however next thing I knew you did it. When you slid down the water splashed all the way over your head, now always before you threw a fit when it was time to wash your hair in the bathtub because you don’t like the water in your face, but this was totally acceptable to you and you did it over, and over and over each time jumping up, wiping your face and clapping wildly. If Uncle TysTys, Auntie Fwofie or I were not clapping you would single us out to remind us of your amazing feat. Ever since, bath time has been a breeze.
And my dear little Grayson while you are getting more and more brave, I am getting more and more scared. Scared that I am having to slowly let you go and even push you out into the big scary world, scared that in conquering your fears you will hurt yourself, and scared that you are growing up too fast. I will be brave though, and if it gets too rough we can always go for a snow cone.
I Love you the Most, Mama
What was to come over the next few weeks was amazing to me. You went down the biggest slide at the park ALL BY YOURSELF, hardly waiting for me to get to the bottom to catch you, (before you wouldn’t even go down the smallest slide with all of my begging and promises of green snow cones). Then there was the miniature version of Roaring Springs in CeeCee’s back yard. You stayed with Auntie “Fwofie” one day and when I came to pick you up you were playing in Lucee’s “wimmin pool” which has a slide shaped like a whale! You went up and down that slide at least 50 times in just the short time I was there. I asked you at one point to go on your tummy and at first you refused, however next thing I knew you did it. When you slid down the water splashed all the way over your head, now always before you threw a fit when it was time to wash your hair in the bathtub because you don’t like the water in your face, but this was totally acceptable to you and you did it over, and over and over each time jumping up, wiping your face and clapping wildly. If Uncle TysTys, Auntie Fwofie or I were not clapping you would single us out to remind us of your amazing feat. Ever since, bath time has been a breeze.
And my dear little Grayson while you are getting more and more brave, I am getting more and more scared. Scared that I am having to slowly let you go and even push you out into the big scary world, scared that in conquering your fears you will hurt yourself, and scared that you are growing up too fast. I will be brave though, and if it gets too rough we can always go for a snow cone.
I Love you the Most, Mama
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